I just weighed myself and my Wii Fit has "politely" told me that I am obese. Rude, right? Frankly, I am not obese.

Yet I am affected. I have been told I am fat and I feel a little disappointed. I want to lose ten pounds. I want to be skinny. I want to feel attractive and wear that designer, hundred dollar coats. Yet I want equality; I want to be treated with respect and dignity. I want to feel safe and that I am a person like everyone else.

Two ideas that clash: Vanity and Reality. I am bashed over the head with ideas that I must be muscular; that I am suppose to have wicked hair and the coolest sneakers around town. I am bombarded with images of skinny men who wear layers of fine clothing that only highlights the beauty of the digitally touched up supermodels.

I am too fat. I am too soft. I cannot tone my body. I have failed. I am not handsome. I am not part of the popular idea of what is attractive.

These are thoughts that swirl through my head! It races around and around. I freak out if I have fat rolling over my jeans; I get shy when I have a shirt that stretches across my chest. Yet, I can laugh at myself once I realize I only live once.

We live once. Insightful, eh? We live once to fall in love, to find our calling. We live once to make a difference and make others happy. We live once and we shall, as a human community, realize that appearances truly are skin deep.

If we live once, it should not matter how we look. We bleed all the same red blood. We all talk and walk and act the same throughout the world. We even have the same emotions!

We live once to laugh at our mistakes, to share in each others’ journey through life, to learn how to hate and love the people around us.

A paradox of our lives is what drives us all to reach for the unreachable. What I mean is that my Wii Fit has said I am fat and I know I am not. Yet I want to change that status of the machine so it may tell me I am "normal" once I physically lose weight.

For who though? My boyfriend loves me for who I am and I should feel the same way. Trends come and go and hopefully my horrible obsession of pleasing My Wii Fit is an obsession.

So from now on, I will walk to school, eat a healthy sandwich and have a cupcake when I get home since I deserve it for being so healthy all day. If that isn’t a good way to feel better about yourself than I dare you to do a better job!